i am feeling extremely upset about some family issues.
you know, just when i thought everything's gonna be blown over real soon, it hit me again.
im just so sandwiched between both of them, and i'm even accused of taking sides.
i cant help but feel upset, and i don't like what each of them are telling me about one another.
i have to listen, but i cannot take sides. why cant they just understand that?
i need some empathy. and a cup of hot chrysanthemum-ginseng to calm my nerves.
what i'm feelin right now? i just want to run away from everything, every damn thing...
just..run away. its not a solution, but at least i wont be there to experience everything first hand, and hopefully it blows over soon.
i should stop running away from this.

i had a GREAT time with yingxuan last night during supper, caught up on so much, and binged on prata! very very delectable.
left me to be a very happy and satisfied girl. :)

and i met yuwen today for lunch and to pass her some stuff. like super long overdue.
fun talking to her really.

i want to spend some me-time. long overdue, stuff i've been wanting to do since long ago.
go window shopping, catch a movie, get some books, swimming, everything by myself. it's been so long since i spent some me-time. a few days break would suffice.
and after that, it's back to packing my table. urgh.

...and if i promise not to feel this pain, will i see you again..will i see you again...